Full-time and no time

Its hard being a working mom, missing my little dude all day, only wishing i got to hangout and laugh and teach and care for my little guy. I dont mind getting up every morning at 5:30am i do mind missing out on morning snuggles. I don't mind the 40 minute commute,  I do mind missing out on an hour and 20 minutes of quality time. I don't mind 8 hour work days, I do mind hour long lunch breaks that I just end up working through anyways and not being able to go home early for it.

I miss my little dude, he's growing up to quickly and I desperately want to watch every minute of it. Its heartbreaking walking out the door and hearing him cry for me to come back. I am extremely luck to have such a wonderful care giver, but I am working full time to pay her to watch him. Unfortunately I am in the income gap where I don't make enough for it to be comfortable while paying for childcare and I wouldn't make enough working part time with no childcare.

Day 8

This week has been a blur. The baby keeps me busy and entertained, he had his half birthday this week and I cant believe how fast he is growing and how smart and curious he is. Every day I wake up so excited to see his big gummy smile.

We went swimming this past Friday with some other mommy's and babe's. I am so not comfortable in a swim suit but I will get there. I am now on day 19 of Jillian Michael s 30 day shred and I LOVE IT! I feel so accomplished for the day and am starting to see results. I am stronger and the scale is starting to creep down. It feels like such a long road a head but I know if I keep my head down and keep pushing I will be at my pre-baby weight in no time. I have my special jeans, the ones that make me feel like a million bucks, tucked in the back of my drawer and I can not wait for them to fit.

I am really luck to have my BF to support me and help out with the babe when I need to work out. I think breaking up with Facebook has really kept my motivation up because I get to focus on ME! And if something is really important, I will get a call or text if I need to know about it and that makes it a bit more special.

Day 1

I have decided to give up Facebook... for a month. Today I realized there is too much access to me and way too much time wasted reading up on other peoples lives instead of living my own. I must admit I feel like I am going through withdrawal wondering who ate what, who went where and who was with who via photos of events I wasn't invited to.
I lead a pretty busy life, I am a new mom to an extremely active 6 month old, I go to school part time and I am trying to develop a product to start my own business with on top of trying to lose this baby weight! I don't think I have time for Facebook so I think we are breaking up...for now.

I hope to accomplish a few things this month
1) Get my homework done on time.
2) Build my prototype
3) Audition for Dragons Den (Feb 14)
4) Drop 10 lbs
5) Create a plan for my summer garden
6) FINALLY strip the ugly wallpaper from my kitchen
7) Be productive on my own initiative.

I know its a tall order but its not about me any more and I have to remind myself of that everyday.